Rebooting

One aspect of the 'diet' lifestyle that I feel has weaseled its way into my fabulous new 'no diet' lifestyle is Rebooting.  This is when I have veered off track and I find myself quite content to continue walking in the wrong direction until my guilt gets the better of me and I need to restart my battery to get going back into the right direction.  The problem that often comes with the acknowledgement that I need reboot is that since I haven't been following my path properly, I feel completely drained of energy and I would rather sit down on my path than to turn around.

My work load has increased in the last few weeks, which is awesome because I work on a contract basis, so if I am not working, I am not making any money.  I had about three months with no work and utilized that time to really focus on myself and my new lifestyle.  It was a great blessing.  Now, I am trying to learn how to be self motivated and focused on my health as well as work.  Couple working with a weekend of volunteering at the Colorado Irish Fest (where I was on my feet each day) and I just feel tired.

While I have still been pretty good at cooking meals at home and staying away from dairy, my strength training, aquatics, hiking, steps at Red Rocks, juicing, vegetable and fruit intakes have gone by the wayside.  I know I can fit in aquatics or a hike in the morning, but that means I have to get my butt out of bed before 8AM.  When you work from home and don't have that urgency, it's easy to shrug your shoulders and roll over and go back to bed.  Why?  Because I am out of energy!  If I were to pick up each of those items listed above, I know my energy would return.  But it's that initial reboot day or two that are the hardest.  They are the days my mind can very quickly convince myself to not do what I know is best because 'I'm tired'.  It's a vicious cycle.

I am a planner.  I love To Do lists and file folders and highlighters and post it notes...so I think today I will plan my week.  Not just my meal plan, but my activity plan as well.  My first reboot on this journey was my month at Green Mountain.  Every meal and day was completely planned out for me and because I paid good money to be there, I followed that plan without complaint.  I feel that if I plan out my week (adding each item in a day at a time to not be overloaded) and stick to it, it will reboot my energy and I will be jumping out of bed again to make my juice and attend aquatics.  I think I will watch one of my favorite documentaries ("Hungry for Change" or "Fat Sick and Nearly Dead") while I make my plan.  I hope for my eyes to be opened again by the end of this day and for my fog to be lifted.  I want to be a healthy person.  I want to experience life beyond my couch and apartment.  I want to be full of energy and life.  I can do this....again and again and again.  If my reboot plan is successful this week, it will be so wonderful to have that plan in place for the next time I need rebooting.  Because let's be honest, I will need it again.